I Wish I Knew What I was Doing (or why we're always just guessing)

I recently came across a comic that provided a very interesting viewpoint on the choice I'm going to have to make in the coming years. The comic along with this video puts a comic voice on a very real problem. I know that maybe this year or next year, definitely sometime during college, I have to decide on what major I'm going to do. The direction I chose is going to have a great impact on the rest of my life. Of course I can always change majors (my brothers changed majors like 3 times) afterwards or chose a different job after I graduate, but likely I will try to stick to whatever career path I decide in the next couple of years and its going to decide a large part of the rest of my life.

When I chose the title of this blog, I wanted something that reflected my personality and outlook on life. Taking a suggestion (joke) from my friend, I decided to focus on my inability to make decisions sometimes - or as my mom says, "Stop saying I don't know. What do you want for dinner!". In life, I find that we all too often have to make decisions, always with insufficient data available. We never know exactly what will happen moment to moment or what the ramifications of everything we do will have. Many decision really don't matter that much like what to eat or drink, but these small decisions and large decisions often add up and I often feel like I'm just sort of guessing whats going to happen. For example, we take tests all the time in school. I'll never know for sure what exactly is going to be on the test so I'm not sure what to study. I'm not even going to mention the guessing that sometimes has to occur while taking the test, but even after tests, I've often learned how I thought I did often has little affect on how I actually did. This is just a small example of what every person on earth deals with on a day to day basis, but we still all manage to get by. Our peronal views of the world only being shattered every now and then.

Of course, the decisions we make in everyday life are fairly insignificant. We can mess some, guess on others, and even postpone a couple and we're still pretty much fine. However, the large decisions like which college to go to, who to date (or marry), where to live, or what job to take will have incredibly long lasting impacts. And these are the decisions we have the least information on. At least I can guess what will happen if I don't study for a test. Its impossible for me to know exactly what affect going to a specific college will have on me. After all, Who will I meet? What professors will I have? Will a tornado pick up my dorm and drop me in the ocean? These are questions none of us can even begin to answer. But life is life. Who knows if the next car I ride in will be hit by a truck or maybe I'll win the lottery. But I have a feeling that for the rest of my life there will be one constant, whether its writing lang essays or deciding what restaurant to eat at, I will be thinking and feeling that "I wish I knew what I was doing".